Just Thauna - thoughts, musings, rants and other stuff

Apologies You Never Get

Have you ever needed an apology? Deeply needed it. Even the simplest "I'm sorry I hurt you" apology can heal wounds. No explanations needed. I know how you hurt me and I don't need to know the reasons. I don't need your excuses. But the words...they do mean so much. They can be the ointment on a deep wound. Doesn't heal it or make it go away, but sometimes it can be a comfort and possibly aid in the healing just a bit. What about when you never get the apology? An apology doesn't need to partner with a reconciliation of any kind. A broken relationship doesn't need to be mended for an ...

I’m a Fighter

Today this song is giving me life. Fighting my way through and finding my way to keep going. Fighter Christina Aguilera Well I thought I knew you, thinkin' that you were true Guess I, I couldn't trust called your bluff time is up 'Cause I've had enough You were there by my side, always down for the ride But your joy ride just came down in flames cause your greed sold me out in shame After all of the stealing and cheating you probably think that I hold resentment for you But uh uh, oh no, you're wrong 'Cause if it wasn't for all that you tried to do, I wouldn't ...

March 4, 2018

And so it goes…

I'm sad. Again. I don't really like to use the word depressed. It's so depressing. But it's true. Sometimes I have to remind myself this is a disorder. Sure there are things I can do to fight it. But there are also times that it's bigger than my fight. Last January I went cold turkey off anti-depressants. It was hell. The withdrawal symptoms were just awful, physical and emotional. I was on ...

January 1, 2018

Welcome 2018!

Wow, 2017 has been rough! However, there were some big blessings sprinkled in that year of rough patches and deep valleys. I welcomed a sweet new grandbaby and watching my sweet little Jbaby become a big sister has just been the best thing ever. Best part of the year. In 2017 I lost my way a bit. OK, a lot. My business struggled some. I battled depression, again. I've kicked the antidepressants ...

All good things…

...must come to an end. Bad things too. Things that no longer serve you or their purpose, time to purge those as well. I'm going through a "does this serve me or bring me joy" phase of purging. Yes, I ...

Hello July

It's July already. I can't believe it. I feel like someone pressed the fast-forward button on life. I want to enjoy summer, but really I'm already looking for to the end of it. Exciting things are ...

Monday, Monday

M O N D A Y: Monday, Monday So good to me Monday morning It was all I hoped it would be I really dig Mondays. And this is the first Monday of a new month. The first Monday after my birthday. So ...

Currently: November 4, 2016

One of the things on my mind currently is that I would really like to get back to my personal blog. I miss it. So here I am. Today is one month from 52 and my list of 50 things for my 50th year is ...